Sometimes I wonder.
Sometimes I complain.
Sometimes I cry.
Why does God allow horrible things happen to good people?
Why doesn’t God terminate bad people immediately?
But then I realize,
Everyone has their own purpose in this world. Some are meant to live longer, some are meant to live shorter.
And God gave me this passage:
“I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith.” – 2 Timothy 4:7
My beloved aunt, she has finished her race in earth and is now with the Lord in Heaven.
I received the news from my mom while i was in the train commuting back home. I sat still and just went quiet for a while. so quiet that i nearly missed my stop. the feeling of annoyance, guilt, sadness came to me. I wish i could be with my aunt during her battle with her illness for the past few months. I wish i could hold her hand but God said differently. I live so far away that i just wish i could have realized it sooner.
auntie, I know sometimes I made you upset. I know sometimes you get annoyed with the pranks and the jokes i made about you. I know sometimes i forgot to call you on the phone. But remember this: I love you from the bottom of my heart and I always will. I am sorry for not picking up the phone when your house phone dialed my cell few weeks ago. 😦
But God told me no need to worry. Because I will see you again in Heaven. And I believe it.
Goodbye, Auntie. Rest In Peace.